I was going to blog this but then realised I could attempt to succinctly just post it on Facebook.
I’m always so thankful for all the love and support you all give me and I’m sorry if I don’t always manage to respond to social media messages at the moment.
I’m also always so thankful for the prayers a lot of you put up there especially over the last 18 months/2 years since the health dramas kicked in.
The last 6 weeks have been tough with a really serious asthma attack a month ago, passing out in church, and various other issues. I’ve had several appointments with my medical people since too.
Last week, on Tuesday one of those appointments was quite tough.
And I (we – glad my Mum was here) was told by my GP to expect my next appointment in Nottingham which is a multidisciplinary to be one where they tell me they have exhausted all treatments.
My body is completely autoimmune which is attributing to various issues and it’s unlikely any will ever ‘go’.
It needs to be managed.
And I’ve been told I need to face the reality this is going to be considered chronic.
It will change and impact how life looks for me massively in weeks and months to come.
Today in church we sang –
‘We believe in God the Father
We believe in Jesus Christ
We believe in the Holy Spirit
And He’s given us new life
We believe in the crucifixion
We believe that He conquered death
We believe in the resurrection
And He’s coming’ back again’
and another song about Him being the lifter of our heads which moved me because of bible verses I’ve read on that theme this week.
I believe in those things above. And I believe and know He is faithful.
I believe He heals but I know he doesn’t too. I don’t know why. But that’s OK for now.
So my point of this long update is? I wanted you to know where things are at health wise BUT I also want to affirm my trust and faith in God.
He has done good things in my life.
And despite the hardness/difficulties/emotions all this stuff brings right now I know He IS good and doing good things. I am holding on to that.
Thank you to the people who’ve journeyed this with me since Tuesday and continue to do so.
You are amazing
Thank you to the people who are not so close but who still often cheerlead me. You are amazing too.